Category Archives: Weightloss

Happy chocolate and icecream day



Let me see. Today I had a donut (because the Valentine’s day), ice cream (because Valentine) and chocolate (because Valentine again). Fuck off Valentine, what is your problem here? You are screwing up my diet. Which is not going well by the way. At least today I have that Valentine dude to blame, rest of this is just my fault.

I don’t get it. I want to get rid of the fat. I know how to do it. And I keep failing. Or sabotaging my own efforts. Maybe I just need a kick on the arse and some hard loving instead of “it’s ok, tomorrow you can get back on track” or “you look good anyway”. I’ve already added cardio to my weekly workouts, now I just need to stay on track with the food. Which isn’t going that badly. And by that I mean I have tried to lose the weight, but it has stayed at the same numbers. Maybe it’s a plateau or maybe my energy intake and consumption are dating now and have decided that they are equal. At least I’m not eating too much! Pfew, that was a rant wasn’t it 😀

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Some better news then. It’s been about two weeks now since I last did something at the gym (if you don’t count the meeting with the PT last week). I forced myself to the gym today after work and yes. It was fun. I didn’t exactly follow any of my routines, but I focused on my arms mostly.

  • Bench press: 10*20kg, 10*30kg, 2*6*40, 1*3*50kg, 31*20kg
  • Decline bench press: 10*20kg, 10*25kg, 10*30kg, 10*25kg, 10*20kg
  • Triceps pushdown – rope extension: 3*10*17,5kg
  • Triceps overhead extension: 18*10kg
  • Bicep curls – rope extension: 3 * 15kg
  • Dumbbell bicep curls: 28*4kg
  • Lateral raises: 20*3kg, 15*4kg, 15*3kg, 10*4kg, 10*3kg, 28*2kg (that last one was agony…)
  • Dumbbell side bends: 3*15*12kg

So happy eating day to all 🙂 And Valentine’s too.

Personal trainer, any experiences?

I’ve been kind of struggling with the weight loss and development things. I feel like I don’t get any stronger nor do I lose any weight. This is really frustrating, because I keep track of my eating and workouts and I stay away from sweets and such. I keep my calorie intake and consumption in place, between -400 and -600 kcal. And it is clearly not working.

That’s why I have been thinking about getting a personal trainer, but I’m kind of scared. What if it does not help?

Anyone out there with experiences with personal trainers?

144, 262, 174, 189

Lowest, highest, stopping point, muscles.

The smallest I have been was when I was 18. I weighed 144 lbs (65kg). I was skating 10 – 15 hours per week and doing other exercises about 5 – 7 hours per week. And I thought I was fat. I wanted to weigh 122lbs (55kg). Why? Because I calculated that my BMI would then be 20.2, right smack in the middle of normal range. At 144 lbs my BMI was 23.88 and I thought it was awful that I was almost overweight.

Little did I know. Of course I weight more than my friend, who didn’t do sports everyday. It is the muscle that weighs, not just the fat. Today, I believe had I realized this I would’ve not ended up like I did.

I started university at another town, away from home. Away from mom’s food, away from the skating rink. Hours spent working out during freshman year: 0. Hours spent drinking and having fun and eating junk food: countless. That went on year after year and the result is here:

Not a pretty sight, I admit. But the thing is, I was pretty happy with myself. I had great friends and I sort of lived in denial. Then one day I got bored. I got bored of being fat and tired and I wanted to get smaller and in shape. After dropping a few kilos, I collected all my courage and got on a scale. 262 lbs, 119 kg. And I knew I had dropped a few. I don’t even now want to know how much I was before that. I mean, I had to go and buy the scale first.

First, I got disheartened. Then I got sad. I used to beat myself up for being such an idiot for letting this happen to me. I could have kept up with the old lifestyle, but I wanted something else. And there was the key. I wanted. So I started with walks, swimming and water-running. I read a lot about losing weight and diets from the net. I cut the junk food of my diet and kept on doing the exercises. And it worked. Slowly, but it worked.

It wasn’t hard. It wasn’t difficult. Of course, I was tempted to eat junk food, buy candy and things like that. I just wanted it just so bad and it made things so much easier for me. I got down to 200 lbs (90kg) and I was so happy. There was still much to do, I knew it. Still, I kind of ended up taking some time off from my little project. I managed to keep the weight off but I didn’t get any smaller.

I had not done any gym or classes until that point. When I wanted to get back on the wagon and continue my project, I got myself a membership for a gym. First month, all I did was walking on the running mat. Then I managed to run. And it felt good. I remember seeing ladies go up from the dressing room to different Les Mills classes. I kind of wanted to go too, but I was so sure I was the fattest and ugliest there, so I kept myself at the running mat and crosstrainer.

Around this time, I got back on the ice too. After first practice I was so exhausted but I also remembered how much I loved to skate. Haven’t been off skates since then.

Finally I got myself to go to BodyBalance class. And it was hard. I couldn’t do all of the moves, I did not have enough strength or stamina. But when I walked home after the class, I felt taller, thinner, fitter and happier.

And there it went. One class at a time. Balance, Pump, Combat, Spinning, Jam. One class at a time. I found my favourites and then it happened.

“Sorry, no drinking for me today, I have Pump tomorrow morning.”

I had gotten down to 174 lbs (78kg). Then the WANT kind of got lost again. I kept on working out, skating, eating healthy. I underwent a breast reduction surgery, so I had to give myself time to heal. After couple of months I could workout again. I tried to lose weight every now and then, but the success wasn’t that good. I didn’t want enough.

Today, I weigh 189 lbs. My BMI is around 31, which means I’m overweight. There is a twist though. Now I don’t want to be 122 lbs or 144 lbs. I want to be fit and healthy. I want to have muscles. With my muscle mass, I aim between 150 – 166 lbs. I am not going to decide the final number, until I get closer to 170 lbs. Who knows, maybe I like to stop there.

At the moment, my goal is to maintain my muscles and get rid of the fat. It’s slow, but I’m going there. Half a pound per week.

So what’s your story? Have you just started your project? What are your goals and ways to get there? Link your blog to the comment box, I like to read 🙂